Almost six years ago, I made my last post on this blog. My, much has happened since then. I’ve gotten divorced and found new love. My oldest son has graduated high school. I’ve written and directed two plays. I make much more money than I ever have before.
And yet…
It still feels like I’m living some sort of dual existence.
I have a secret in my life, one I’m not willing to share just yet. Suffice to say that it’s a real game changer. A few friends know about it and I’m sure that one might be able to guess as to what it might be.
Apart from that, I found some sort of quasi-spiritual framework that I loosely adhere to. Do I believe that Jesus is the son of god or god himself: No. However, I like the guy. I think he was on to something. If only we could get past our interpretations of what he actually might have said, then maybe we could see the words for what they really are. Somewhere deep down in what Jesus said lies a truth that might be relevant for us. I’m not interested in religion or ultimate truth. Like Solomon in days of old, I want wisdom. Unfortunately, with wisdom comes sadness and melancholy, something most people don’t really understand. But truth is always better than a lie. The red pill is always better than the blue pill.
I really wish I was braver than I am.
A Postmodernist Nobody 